strike two

My heart's broken, again. I have been trying to suppress my emotions, keeping check of myself, constantly looking in the mirror, even resorted to putting cheek tint to hide the sadness I feel but I've had enough of it, i can't fight it anymore. Yes, I'm heart broken and it's all my fault. I had my heart crushed by the same person that shattered it to pieces a couple of years back and the shame's all on me. thanks for nothing.